Pahuuden Maa Event Catch All Log

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Who: You and everyone else
What: Exploring Pahuuden Maa, the newly expanded universe
When: Pre-dated Dec 15 - but all events in this thread happen Dec 21 - Jan 4
Where: Pahuuden Maa
Rating/Warnings: Please add approprite CW/TW labels to your threads if necessary when necessary
NOTES: Solstice Plot Dec 2020: Pahuuden Maa


Welcome to a new universe, everyone.

Please use this as a Catch All Log Event post for all your winter adventuring needs. You may use the link above to remember all the various things you can do in this new space. But below, we've listed a summary

1. Visit the Ice Palace

• The Ice Palace has gardens with ice and snow sculptures
• There is also the ice maze to have fun in.
• The Ballroom
• Fine dining

2. The outdoor ice rink

Spend a day skating the whole way around, there are skate rentals and food all the way around the rink.

3. Visit the Ski Lodge

• For skiing and snowshoeing
• Rent a room for a night or week, or whatever
• There's the dining room for a good warm meal
• The saunas
• The hotsprings

4. Explore the Mountains and Forests

• Go for a walk
• Take note of the unique plants (get high?)
• Take a picture of the unique animals
• Run into a wild Energy Burst

5. Visit the town

• Go shopping!
• Go for a sleigh ride
• Remember, there's a big trolley pulled by a team of reindeer that is essentially a bar on wheels
• Visit the reindeer stables
• Run into/capture some mischievous Energy Bursts

6. Generally marvel at the magic in this place

7. Have fun!

Comments

[neverjedi]

He couldn't know what was going on in Anakin's head in full, but he could put together that apology with his earlier memories of Anakin saying that everyone left and guess a little of it.

He leaned back in his seat a little and dragged his hand down over his face, tiredly.

"You don't have anything to be sorry for. There's -- you didn't do anything wrong, and you still haven't." Was he frustrated? Yes. That was the problem. "Obi-Wan couldn't express a feeling to save his life - or help a kid who needed to hear it, and I can't stop expressing them long enough to be a decent friend. I wish I thought I could."

[darkforcerising]

"You are a decent friend..." Anakin said quietly, but he added, "When you're talking with me." As opposed to a month of them avoiding each other.

"You can be messy with your emotions... I am."

[neverjedi]

"I don't know how not to be with the memory stuff."

It would be ironic if Obi-Wan had been any better, instead of just shutting more and more of it down or hiding it.

"I miss you, Anakin. I want you to talk to be able to talk to me about the shit show the whole thing is - and it's more of one for you. I just... don't know how to make it not messy on my end, and that really doesn't feel right."

is he babbling? He's babbling.

[darkforcerising]

Anakin looked down and mumbled a heartfelt, "I missed you, too."

It wasn't an admission he was embarrassed about, it just came on the coattails of a lot of emotions, emotions that had been up and down all evening.

He was still wary, because of those emotions, because of past experiences. Because he didn't want to get hurt either, and he'd already been singed enough, here.

He scratched at a spot on the table. Fidgeting helped him think.

"There isn't... a wrong way to have emotions, they just... are," he said. He'd spoken a lot with his therapists over the years about emotions and having them and how to deal with them. "I'm not mad that you have feelings. I'm not saying that you shouldn't have any emotions about what you experienced or what I experienced... Just... to hear me out."

[neverjedi]

He's pretty wary too, because emotions and miscommunications and failure and memories and-

he's wary but he's staying at the table because this is important. Because Anakin is important. Because this matters - Anakin matters - more than almost anything.

Just pushes everything that isn't that aside, because it's not his focus right now.

"If you can handle my emotions, I am more than willing to listen."

[darkforcerising]

Anakin fought the urge to flee. He didn't know why, after hearing Ben say that he would listen. Perhaps it was because he didn't know what lay beyond this point, or perhaps it was because in the past there had never been a beyond this point. Maybe both.

But he paused, not looking at Ben.

But he finally nodded, looking up, and said, "Okay."

[neverjedi]

He waits a bit past the okay, watching Anakin with concern and a little uncertainty, but then it becomes clear Anakin isn't going to continue and he isn't sure if he should ask and -

"Do you wanna talk now or do something else together now?"

[darkforcerising]

"We can talk now," Anakin said. "Unless you want to do something else right now?"

[neverjedi]

"No. If you are willing to talk, and need to talk, there's nothing else I want to be doing." ...Should he prod, he wonders. Maybe? He thinks about it and debates it and decides he will but maybe a brief gap first.

[darkforcerising]

Anakin nodded and then lapsed into silence while he struggled with what to say now that he had a chance to say it. He knew the question was going to hurt them both but it had been on his mind since the memory came to him. And it couldn't be shaken.

"Do you," he started, then looked down. "Do you think I'm dangerous?"

[neverjedi]

He was prepared for Anakin to start talking, but that question startles him. "I don't, no. I remember being pretty... scared and worried, but I don't think you're remotely dangerous and I think my feelings about it in my memories were actually pretty-" Wait, no using wrong for feelings, "Misguided and unfair."

[darkforcerising]

Anakin nodded, but only a little bit relieved. Because he was also thinking about the time, here - well, on earth, not in this winter resort - where he'd lost control of his emotions and with the Force had broken his window.

"But I am, aren't I. If I panic, I lose control. Maybe that's what... they could tell."

[neverjedi]

"Do you want me to tell you what I think it was, or just listen?" He can do either, but he wants to know which one is most useful to Anakin, here and now.

[darkforcerising]

Anakin opened his mouth and then stopped himself. He had to not say the first thing that came into his head. He needed to be thoughtful about this. No one was here trying to hurt the other. Jumping to conclusions had been the bad, wrong choice the first time. And Anakin was trying not to do that again.

Finally, he nodded. "You can tell me what you think."

[neverjedi]

"I think some of it had to do with the Prophesy, and some of it had to do with how powerful you were. But I think some of it had to do with the kind of fear... traditionalists have for something new."

Well, he'd gotten permission first, though whether Anakin would understand that last was criticism of the Jedi or thought it was Criticism of him, Ben did not know.

And it made him nervous.

[darkforcerising]

"What do you mean they feared something new?" Anakin asked, more because he didn't quite understand. Not because he'd taken it as an insult against him.

[neverjedi]

"The Jedi had done things in a very particular way, for a very long time. Part of that was taking very little kids with... no trauma and trying to ensure they didn't really experience any. Changing the way things were done and the idea of the Prophesy was about change, too... I think it scared some of them, and some of them just resented it."

He's slow and careful but he isn't mincing words or shying away from sharing the thought, at least.