"I don't know," he admitted. "Leaving aside whether or not I'm capable for the moment...." Because he didn't know the answer to that, either, "I love the sport, I love competing, I loved the Olympics, but there is a lot of toxicity, especially at those levels. It can be a pressure cooker and a meat grinder. I want to encourage my students to reach for their dreams, but I also want them... capable of recognizing the pressure, maybe countering it, definitely assessing whether the payoff is still worth it to them." That was a lot of words, and a lot of thought, but he had a lot of feelings about it.