At his own cutting remark his eyes settled on the basket which they had never even gotten around to opening. It was the typical sort of meal arrangement with Alec. They never went well. He shouldn't have been so bewildered... or hurt, by the way he had been yelled at and shoved aside. Anthony tried to hide how deeply that whole exchange had surprised and wounded him behind a grim frown. That too was fairly typical only this time there hadn't been a pond or a set of stairs for him to tumble into. There was only that terrifyingly deep vast unknown chasm, a long fall where he didn't know who he would be when he finally hit the bottom, but he was going to fall regardless. Had began the fall- apparently, before he had even realized...
"Tell me it's not true. If you don't feel the same way, then tell me and I'll let it go. I'll settle..."
He spat the word Alec had used because maybe that was what it had been all along. His trying to fill other people's expectations of him was settling for less than he really wanted. Anthony's darkly shaded eyes look back to Fell's. He closed the distance between them again and reached out to touch Aziraphale's lapel, to recall how soft and wonderful it felt beneath his fingertips.
"But if there is any part of you, like me, that wants to know what it feels like..."
Anthony leaned just a touch closer tempting Aziraphale's lips to settle against his instead of continuing to deny this was happening.
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At his own cutting remark his eyes settled on the basket which they had never even gotten around to opening. It was the typical sort of meal arrangement with Alec. They never went well. He shouldn't have been so bewildered... or hurt, by the way he had been yelled at and shoved aside. Anthony tried to hide how deeply that whole exchange had surprised and wounded him behind a grim frown. That too was fairly typical only this time there hadn't been a pond or a set of stairs for him to tumble into. There was only that terrifyingly deep vast unknown chasm, a long fall where he didn't know who he would be when he finally hit the bottom, but he was going to fall regardless. Had began the fall- apparently, before he had even realized...
"Tell me it's not true. If you don't feel the same way, then tell me and I'll let it go. I'll settle..."
He spat the word Alec had used because maybe that was what it had been all along. His trying to fill other people's expectations of him was settling for less than he really wanted. Anthony's darkly shaded eyes look back to Fell's. He closed the distance between them again and reached out to touch Aziraphale's lapel, to recall how soft and wonderful it felt beneath his fingertips.
"But if there is any part of you, like me, that wants to know what it feels like..."
Anthony leaned just a touch closer tempting Aziraphale's lips to settle against his instead of continuing to deny this was happening.