He appreciated that, more than he could say. At least someone understood. He didn't want to think about Fell having the power not to, even the recognition of it gave him chills more than any ghost. He tugged the blanket further about himself-- then made a face.

"Happiness is overrated. I wouldn't even know how to do it even if I tried. Anyway, all it does is bring expectation. Why aren't you happy, Alec, why can't you enjoy anything, Alec, for Christ's sake can't you even crack a smile? It's never enough for some people." He grumbled, tucking down his chin.

"I just want to be myself."